Sick &Tired

*I'm sick &  tired of people who feel entitled. Unfortunately, some of them are members of my family. It is also unfortunate but I find that to some extent I am to blame. When you raise a child you have hopes and dreams for them. I don't mean that you expect them to grow up and be a doctor just because you wanted them to. I mean you, hope and you pray that they will grow up to be well-adjusted productive members of society, who treat others the way they would like to be treated and always take responsibility for their actions.
*However, I know that I'm not alone. I know there are many parents out there that feel the same way that I do. Who, without a manual to guide them through the murky waters of child rearing, they have made mistakes. By the time those mistakes are realized, the child is grown and it is too late to go back and fix them.
*I wish with all my heart that I could. That I could start over with the knowledge and understanding that I now have. To do the things I should have done. To handle situations that arose differently. But it is not an option that we parents are afforded.
*I'm sick & tired of watching a child that I raised sherk responsibilities, lay blame on others, and treat those who have always treated them better than they truly deserved like they are disposible. I'm sad to know that I had a hand in creating an individual who has turned out in many ways to be exactly the opposite of the little child I once held, cuddled, sang to and rocked to sleep. I remember that child. I remember thinking how special this little person was and how special they were going to be. Only to see that today they are more concerned with what works for them. With what they get out of any given situation. Never mind whether someone else is driven into the ground in the process or if that person has to do without. If it gets them what they want or (think) they need, that's all that matters.
*To have this person who was grown within your own body, carried for 9mths and nutured to the best of your knowledge and ability, treat you with disrespect and distain, not speak to you even to say hello, and have the nerve to criticize you and the way you live and the choices you make is about as much as any mother can take.
*I'm done. Yes, a mothers love is unconditional. Your child doesn't have to love you. It's a free country. But, I will no longer sit around and watch as my child treats me or anyone else with disrespect. I will always love my children. No matter what. However, I will not make excuses for them. I know that at the very core  they were given love and guidance and their every true basic need was met and more. I am no longer responsible for their actions. A parent gives their child those basics but it is their responsible to accept responsibility for becoming the person they are as an adult. To stop whining about what mommy & daddy, or life, or the government didn't give you. And make something of yourself, even if that is simply a good & kind & caring person who treats people with respect and takes responsibility for what it is. There is no entitlement. The world doesn't owe you and neither do I.
* So, I'm done with it all. All the drama,  any guilt. I accept responsibilty for bringing them into this world and doing the best I could, for making common parenting mistakes(like not spanking and listening to idiots who called themselves experts) but that is as far as I can go. I'm done~
One heartbroken parent